Namaste: I leave in 27 hours

Yeah, I was pretty disturbed to calculate that number too.

I'm in between a lot of emotions, the foremost being anxiety. I'm about to transition out of the life I've lived for the last 4 months. I never thought I would say this, but thank god I'm leaving at 2:00 AM. I wouldn't be able to sleep if I had to leave the next day.

Anyways, I'm sad to be leaving again. The last time I left I have a pretty engrained snipet of crying over my mom's shoulder. I don't think I'll repeat the same scene, but it might be filled with similar emotions. I've met so many people here that I've come to love and experienced so much that to leave physically from the space is probably one of the more harder transitions I've had to do.

It's one of those things that I won't realize until I step onto or off the plane. That's how it always seems to happen with me-- I don't process until the aftermath.

Anyways, there isn't much to update that can't be written in at least 45 minutes, so I'll just say that my time alone was refreshing, incredible, and very rewarding. I had some of the most intense, personal, and incredible interactions of my life and had experiences that really, at times, blew my mind and conscience wide open. I was able to just be-- living and marveling at the things I saw and did at every single moment of my experience. It was really rejuvenating, similar to the feeling I had while going out and doing field research during my IS period, except this time I had little to guilt trip me.

I'll probably post another before I leave, but if I don't, I just wanted to say thanks to India and to all that it gave me regardless of the form (people, experiences, fun times, frustrating times, getting ripped off, you know, that sort of thing). I couldn't have done it without you.

Love and miss, and I"ll be back before you know it :-)

Hasan